Maeyonnaise

It’s already late. I went to bed an hour or so ago..and I am still wide awake. I tried to get some sleep early tonight but couldn’t.

I feel bothered… restless… uneasy..

I dunno if it is because of the “negative result”… or the last movie I saw - “The Lost Room”.

I think that Lost Room bothered me. I dunno coz it seems still clear in my head. I haven’t finished it.. I am halfway through part 2. I can’t sleep yet coz of fear that I may dream about it.  Believe me it’s not something you would like to be stuck in a dream with.

Actually, I have been having vivid dreams lately… mostly bothersome or even very sad to a point that I wake up in the middle of the night in silent tears.

Well, I kept myself distracted by doing some editing on my friendster profile and our wedding blog.  At least, I get to do something creative with my time while I try to lull away unpleasant thoughts that could manifest into unpleasant dreams.

Anyway…just a few more minutes and hopefully, my mind will be at ease by then… and so is my tummy.  Feels like there’s some rumbling over there. Must’ve eaten too much today… hehehe.

ah well… maybe I should just pray again… this time to my guardian angel…